“I wanna know what it’s like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.” ~Motion City Soundtrack
I actually decided to die today. "Please don't be so dramatic." "You have so much to live for" People please, you are so unaware of what I mean. A tear down and a build up. A knowledge that what I was doing is not working anymore. I decided to die today. And I believe it will be a very good day. "Your life is worth it don't do it!" They say. But I don't think you are listening to what I am saying. Because I decided to die today. So let me have this one. To spell it out for you... I decided to die today. A death to the life that never treated me well. One that is changed into a new way of thinking. Going about temptation with a new form. Not one full of tunnel vision blockers. Not one full of disarray. But one that justifies and glorifies the hope that's inside. Because if I don't die today, I will never learn to be alive. I will never learn how to be okay.