What is This Knocking?

“We won’t stand for a facade.”
                               ~Say Anything

~What is This Knocking?~

My door is closed.
I have no intention to open this door.
Shut to the outsider,
Shut to the people around me.
Friends that try, fail.
Lovers who try, don’t make it to the door.
I have been burned before.
I have felt the sting that comes with friendship.
Surface level friendship is not friendship at all.
The real me longing for more than a smile and a hello.
Craving love more than food.
And hoping that one day I will open the door.
What is this knocking?
Who made it this far?
It continues.
It perseveres.
My door is closed.
And I have made myself alone.
Trying to love.
Trying for more.
A shut door is not a policy that works at all.
The real me has no chance to be, if I do not say hello to love.
Craving love more than this world.
And hoping for hope to open the door.
I am alone.
I am…
Where is the I Am…?
I am retreating back.
Beyond the darkness…I am.
There it is again.
That knock.
Again…again…
Should I go…go and maybe not be alone?
For surface level friendship is not friendship at all.
A shut door is not a policy that works at all.
Craving the I Am…and knowing that the knocking is from Love.
Hand on the knob…a creak…a light…
Hello…
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