I Wish I Was Crucified

Give up yourself, and you will find your real self. Lose your life and you will save it. Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favourite wishes every day and death of your whole body in the end submit with every fibre of your being, and you will find eternal life. Keep back nothing. Nothing that you have not given away will be really yours. Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in.

                                                                                                                                            ~C.S. Lewis


I Wish I was Crucified

God is the life that I wish to live.
God is the hope that comes forth when I doubt.
God is the answer to my questions.
God is the giver and the one that knows my everything.
At times I wish I would have been the one that was crucified. 
At times I wish I could flood my own life. 
God did it for me, and I am grateful
But at times I wish I was crucified.
God is gracious and merciful.
God gives me the doctrine of substitution. 
God takes my place on the cross
And it was all set in motion when the world began.
I deserve to be crucified 
I deserve to be the sufferer on the wooden planks. 
I deserve to replace God and die with no crown. 
I deserve nothing, but God gives everything.

All I want is to thank you God.
Even though I should be crucified.
All I want is to love you God.
Even though I should be crucified, crucified.
God is the life that I wish to live.
God is the hope that comes forth when I doubt. 
You know that I should be crucified. 
God is the answer to my questions.
God is the giver and the one that knows my everything. 
You know I should be crucified.
Flood my soul

Flood my mind
Flood my being and my life.
I wish I was crucified, but at the same time I am glad I was not.
All I want is to thank you God.
For I am undeserving, yet you give me everything. 
All I want is to love you God.
For I am undeserving
And I am thankful for the ark you provided, so I will never have to be crucified. 
Flood me and cleanse me, wash away the ash, so I will never have to be crucified.
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